Beautifully Broken

                 Important Things in Life        I feel like one of the most important things in life is your friends. What friends you make and who you surround yourself with is super important. I realized that only after a few months with being around the same people. Thinking that it was okay to do that. When in the end my real goal was to not be alone. I did not want to feel alone. When sometimes being alone is actually not a bad thing and people need alone time.      When I came back to the truth that stood out like no other. I had to be honest with myself and other people. Tell them how I really felt instead of hiding things and acting like things were okay.  When I did tell my friends how I felt I figured out the ones I wanted too still be friends with and the ones I did not. But I am glad I drew my lines because in the end I feel so much better!    God has blessed me with some better p...

                  The Past Half-Year      I really want to write about my situation because one day I can look back and be proud of myself for where I am right now. Here are a few sentences I wrote that I can elaborate on. “An injection that doesn’t help the hurt. Words that won’t go away. A different heartbreak that hurts unlike any other. Love that is hard to see. Healing that can happen now. Hiding behind a wall of hurt and smiling for the crowd.”      In these six sentences, it basically summarizes the past half-year of my life. The first sentence states , “ An injection that doesn’t help the hurt. ” For the past few months, I got to a point where I was feeling numb and even something so painful in the moment that is supposed to make you feel better didn’t feel better. Even though I believed that God has a plan for me and is holding my hand. Every day got harder and harder to deal with as they went by. At som...

         You take a lot of risks and make a lot of sacrifices when you like someone. At least that's what I do when I find a new crush. This time I waited to tell this one boy that I liked him. I made a homemade valentine's card along with some other treats. I would leave lunch early just to walk and talk with him in the hallways. He always waited for me to walk to lunch together. I thought there has to be some potential. But he ended up just hurting me in the end. While we have a good friendship. He ended up putting off the no for the next day after valentine's day. Which I recommend doing it just ends up hurting the person.      I am learning that I shouldn't try to live up to the standard of "being in a relationship in high school". I should be fulfilling myself with God's words and not what some boy I like.

                       It Was A Hard Right Choice                               I am continuing my story of letting go of that one person. I only left on I have to see them again even after our misunderstandings. I really wanted to hold onto this one good friend because they always gave great beneficial advice. Advice that helps you grow as a person or encourages you to keep going on.   But mainly having friends around you that help you grow are the ones that make a huge impact into who you are of course.

                        Taking Words of Others                         I feel like everyone in life has taken some sort of words negative and positive. As you grow up you learn that words can either have a lot of weight but also lose weight. If it is repeated more than once. But it is really difficult for anyone to take negative hurtful words.  You really have to learn to build up a stronghold or have something to or someone to lean on. Either way words can hurt so much. Knowing what words are true and what words aren’t. Our Heavenly Father has a lot to say about this and all encouraging. So it is important to be strong in him I learn. But also to not just ignore people’s negative words. Acknowledge them in a way where you can identify them and if they really fit who you are. 

          Anyone Going through a Storm right now?     When we struggle sometimes we can only see the bad parts of how horrible it everything is. I challenge you to take your struggles and learn from them. Don´t just cry about them! See what you can use from these storms to make them into rainbows. We can all maybe one day pull someone out the of the darkness we went through :) TURNING YOUR MISERY into MINISTRY

                        Letting That Person Go                                 Just as everyone has ¨crushes¨ I also recently had one that just went south.I went to homecoming with this friend that I have talked to for awhile now and it was a lot of fun. As time went on we both started to like each other. But I was the one who ended up pursing and asking him out. He never told if he liked me or not until a misunderstanding came up. Still I put twice as much effort into him because I liked him so much. He had a lot of good qualities that I thought were attractive. But he could not get over that misunderstanding so we never went out. Realistically I should be looking for a guy who loves God and also truly likes me. Not someone who is afraid and has different beliefs. It was really sad to let him go because I truly loved him so much. I f...