As The Days Go By

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                 As the days go by sometimes it's easier to get through and others I end up seeing you at school or thinking of you someway or somehow. And let me just say if I could make the choice I would want to go back in time and wish I never interacted with you because I realized this emotional attachment I have with you is just an inconvenience to me. It is not like I am even trying to think about you it just happens out of the blue and than it makes me sad. 

            I was walking to the commons and you ran into me and said, "sorry" because you did not realize it was me but if you did than you would have sprinted away like you always have. So here I am kinda wishing I could start over and wishing we were just strangers because the feeling of being someone you do not ever want to speak to again it sucks. Yes I am sorry for wronging you in a way I do not know how the outcome affected you. But even than will you go around having some hatred for me? Will you go around your whole life carrying this feeling of dislike for me? 


From Strangers to Friends back to Strangers who do not even acknowledge each other anymore.


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   You are just one of those people that left a mark on my heart and I do not know how to STOP thinking about YOU. If there was some way some how to STOP I would do anything to get rid of the memories of you and our past if I knew things would play out this way. It makes me SO upset that its been weeks and while you make it so obvious you have gotten over me...I do my best to hide how I truly have been feeling because its truly something I do not want to deal with. 


You can talk to her but you can't live with me being around

You can act normal if you don't notice to me

I just want to forget everything about you



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Dec 18,2023





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